haven't updated for a long time... ng.. dun have anything to post.. actually, everday life's monotonous.. there's nothing memorable to drop down.. ai.. oh yea, tomorrow gonna have lunch with harry potter selene, alvin's unfainful wife carmen, and banbi so stephen and hazel, whose ankle had been bandaged (i guess?) for few days, we'll go to "29" which's "bretch's" ng.. wanna go there for a long time, but haven't tried once before.

yestefday went shopping with mom before having english class. bought a skirt from tommy. so i buy a dress finally~ but still have to find a pair of boots.. ng.. any suggestion? wenta roxy, i really wanna buy something there.. 30%off!!! for all items!!! if i don't buy anything, i'll scold at myself.. but, i didn't buy anyhting there.. 'cause my mom didn't like roxy's design very much, she said the clothes were not that special and beautiful. yea.. maybe i'll go there again on tue with friends, not with mom *wink*

then had engilsh class, so finally there's a girl.. janis. but i was still the minority of the class!!!... there're 6 ppl, and 4 of them were studying in SP co-ed, and one from SP co-ed pr. session. after the class, janis, tim and me went to city super and sat for a while. me and tim shared 1 mango pancakes, yummy~ bought from "moon gae" yea~ i love "moon gae"!! i must go there if i go to sai kong~ yea.. and that little shop contains lots of happy memories of mine.. remember the day we went to 3S bay together? and lotz ... 3S..

anyway, going to have bunches of test!! damn.. the teachers are squeezing us!!! our passion, our energy, our creativity, our innovation and our health!! they're squeezing them out of our body!!! and don't have to wait till HKCEE, i'll become a mummy in a few months...  *roar*

this is a great song.. great lyrics.. really touching.. 

anywayz, these dayz are terribly busy.. and i'm very sleep now.. exhausted.. by both private affair and official business... ai!! gonna be mad!!! my little brain's going to burst. feel like sick these dayz too.. well, actually everyone 's not very happy or being good. i mean, it seems that, hazel hurt her feet, and mayman 's feeling empty, i'm having so much thingz to worry about... this year's really not fortunate, damn

next week, 2 tests, and more to come. gosh.. and inter-house bball's approaching.. well, although i'm only a reserve, but i've got the responsibility to practise! i mean, i'll have to play few matches..maybe.. and rite, this afternoon played bball for a while, and i found that's more interesting and exciting and happier than fencing.. omg.. netball 's also good too.. well, maybe i 'm just long for team works and team spirit.. scaa spirit's fading... and our love's dying (hazel, your "rap" 's useful now.. *sign*)

yea and that's all for today

damn.. the whole thing's not over .. and new problems keep poping up!! damn... DAMN DAMN DAMN!!! DDDDAAAAMMMNN!

damn.. i just can't stop damning.. damn!!! i just can't figure out any word better than *DAMN*... tell you what, THIS WORLD'S REALLY GOING TO BE CRAZY.. DAMN!!! what couldn't you just be a little bit kinder to me? and just stop confusing me and breaking my nerve?? i mean.. i was totally unconcious when i was inside the MTR... together with my sore throat, and probably i got cold and even fever, maybe.. 37'C ..  plz stop it.. ok? i couldn't afford it.. me can't my heart can't only one thing can.. that's nothing... (this sounds stupid.. but that's exactly what i feel rite now)

kie.. stop that first.. got to talk about what i'd done today.. had breakfast with mayman at times' mcDon. then hazel came with her feet hurt (and there's blood too!) by the new shoes. and after she sat down, i gave her band-aid and later we went back to school.

well, we were late, and we knew it already on the way to school, but none of us care, 'cause we all had the belief that if we were late already, we'd still be late even we walked faster, and btw, i'd never been late once.. so i dun mind to try once~ *wink*

since it's raining, so there's no assembly, and so we were not counted as late.

form period, then math, nest double phy.(sooo sleepy!! even sleepier than mathz! omg..) recess, went down to F.1 and collected the money for CDS. then had double chin. not boring, to my surprise.. probably 'casue i paid more attention to kon gun than last year, and YEA! this year i DID copy NOTES!!! that was not tina rite? usually slept during chin.. ha~ yea! i've changed! F.4! and, to be honest, chin 's not that boring actually.. comparing to phy... recess again, did the same thing as the last recess, had double eng afterwards.. alvin asked us to use the DOUBLE-LESSONS to WRITE AN ESSAY!! GOD!! but it's better than he told us to do it as homework gei.. at least.. the last lesson 's RS, V.Mok.. damn.. singing hyms and praying took at least 15 min, and then group discussion, the topic we had started discussing since the first lesson, and now was the forth lesson! damn!! we 'd never talked a bit about the HKCEE syllabus.. damn!! always singing and praying.. i don't think that help me to do better in hkcee.. could she stop that? we pray every morning!! we have assembly!!! and .. god will be annoyed if he heard the same prayer at least twice a day from at least 8x40 students! *sign*...

and finally the whole stuff 's finished.. i mean school.. had lunch with hazel at deli, then back to scaa, had training.. not as enthusiastic as before... plus the following "extra" "rewards" "bonus"...

i called her last night and asked her what was the situation, and she answered she didn't know. and then dead air, at last, i asked if she.. you know, still wanna be together.. that kind of stupid question. know what she answered? "i dunno" so i quickly said bye. but then, she called me, and said we'd talk on monday. and i was damn upset, and know what i did? i took my mum's make up set, and MAKE UP!! wanna put on foundation, "yin gi", and also lipstick.. and i wanted mascara too, but there's no mascara. and then i even cut my hair a little bit more. (dun worry, no much difference) tried many hair style.. may man called, she said i sounded kinda happy, and excited. yea, i thought so too, but in fact i was not! but all night i was just .. acting excitingly? i duno. and i couldn't get into sleep.. maybe it's because i drunk too much tea during dinner. and one i got into sleep, my dream was all about her! damn

so i didn't wanna go out on monday. neven school. so upset now. and ... nervous? duno. kinda complicated. maybe later i'll go shopping, or do anything else except sitting at home, looking at my mobile, and waiting for her impossible sms... (i put it next to my pillow yesterday night..) yea! do lots of shopping will help me a bit i guess. that's what girls usually do when they're upset rite? it's not bad.. at least not worse than eating as much as possible.

actually, i think i am behaving very well already.. but.. i don't think it's good. actually, if you called me now, you will not find out what happened if i dun tell you. ha~ that's me i gues.. never show true feeling? or i don't know how to show? maybe the later one.

about love, i have nothing to say

love is also as wayward as women, not only chance

everything is a bubble

which has just burst 

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today!!! yea! big day!! 'cause i finally went to have a new hair cut!!!! yo!!! this morning, went to see "league of extraordinary gentlemen" with hazel, the movie was really good!! and quite dramatic..

then had lunch in Deli, went to "Xen" afterwards. hazel actually wanna go to "la mod" which was much more "pro-er" then "Xen".. but at last we went to "Xen"

both of us had a really SURPRISING new look... haa~ really funny!! maybe later i'll upload some pix.

then we went to Times and took sticker fotoz~ the pix were FABULOUS!!! and then went shopping for a while then went home.